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♥ Wednesday, January 19, 2005
11:54 AM

only god knows how much i've cried todae. realli leh.. i've been like cryin everytime something reminds me of him.. since i came home.. n to the comp. got this song arh.. chinese song.. it's like dedicated to him one.. so.. everytime that song was played in my playlist rite.. i'd sure cry..

there's a lot a lot a lot n a lot of things that could possibly remind me of him. jerseys esp.. when filzah wrote that at her nick.. i was like.. just finished cryin u noe.. n.. aiya.. start again. ahahhaa.. i'm tryin soo soo hard not to think about him. but i just cant get him outta my head. tryin soo hard to cheer myself up.. but nth works. nothin at all. in school yeah.. i dun look sad. how could i possibly look sad man.. n i dun wan to look sad! uurghh.. it's all just soo confusin. i think i just need a couple more days.. or i think.. even weeks.. fer me to get over him..

i hate him!! but.. it's just soo.. unresistable not to think about him. veri hard fer me to forget him.. now.. i feel like.. having my one last cry.. to those who dunno.. we already broke. since he take it that we already broke.. so be it la.. it's such a waste of time planning all this.. just too much of a waste of time!

22 sept 2004 to 18 january 2005. i'll never forget. never.. n IF u happen to be reading this syamil.. i just wanna say that.. ' I know more than u think i do'

`outz.