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Friday, May 27, 2005
urgh. i missed an event of the year. hate myself. IM CURRENTLY HATING MYSELF! i thought i cud like skip the rock climbing thingy. eeee. stupid rock climbing larh. when i got in the school bus, unwillingly, sat right in front. looking out the window. i cried soo hard. cried soo soo hard. haiz. listening to my mp3.. crying.. reached there. sat one corner. kept quiet. the guys in my class looked worried. but haha. doubt they were.
around 10.40, when i know the talentime in school already started, i cried. aarrghh. am soo angry with myself that i went for rock climbing. hehe. illya tried to cheer me up somehow. thanks. =) the journey back to school, i did the same. heh. cried. damn larh. i cried too much today. hehe. by the time we reached school, the whole thing JUST ended. urgh. met up with the rest in the canteen. while listening to the recording the filzah helped me to reocrd, cried again. hehkz. cos i missed it. they sounded nice. they really did. hehe.
filzah saw me crying, she started to cry. then sukashi. then renee. ishk. its like a chain reaction. haha. one cry.. the rest all will cry. ahaha. but its touching that they actually cried with me. hehe. amazing huh. maybe theres this special connection larh. hee.
but then after i stopped crying, suddenly cried again. aarrrrgghh. hate myself. almost everyone saw me crying ready. n its not a good thing ! hehe. then he came. sat beside me. and took me for a walk. we sat at the senior block staircase. heh. aww. felt real touched that someone's there or me. told me some things. that i wont forget. heh. he managed to cheer me up somehow. thanks .. *hugs*
i got netball after that. ishk. no mood for netball sey. and coach scolded us for not coming. blah blah lalalala. like i care ! hah. training was kinda tough uh. but i just wanna get it over with. thats all. after netball, me n filzah sat around. filzah n harrith go to the netball corner there n played netball. haha. while i sat near the basketball court there. on the staircase wall. haha. whatever its called larh. watched them played soccer. all mix2. got track guys. got him. haha. whoever larh. interesting. sat there alone. then the ball hit me a few times. hahaha.
everything cheered me up i guess. no more crying involved. hehkz. went to 171 coffeeshop after that. after they all bathed n everything. last day of school. haiz. wouldnt see him that often i guess. will really2 miss him.
will be missing u. loving u loads. holding u close. and not letting u go.. time will go by soo slowly when ure away..
♥
Friday, May 27, 2005
urgh. i missed an event of the year. hate myself. IM CURRENTLY HATING MYSELF! i thought i cud like skip the rock climbing thingy. eeee. stupid rock climbing larh. when i got in the school bus, unwillingly, sat right in front. looking out the window. i cried soo hard. cried soo soo hard. haiz. listening to my mp3.. crying.. reached there. sat one corner. kept quiet. the guys in my class looked worried. but haha. doubt they were.
around 10.40, when i know the talentime in school already started, i cried. aarrghh. am soo angry with myself that i went for rock climbing. hehe. illya tried to cheer me up somehow. thanks. =) the journey back to school, i did the same. heh. cried. damn larh. i cried too much today. hehe. by the time we reached school, the whole thing JUST ended. urgh. met up with the rest in the canteen. while listening to the recording the filzah helped me to reocrd, cried again. hehkz. cos i missed it. they sounded nice. they really did. hehe.
filzah saw me crying, she started to cry. then sukashi. then renee. ishk. its like a chain reaction. haha. one cry.. the rest all will cry. ahaha. but its touching that they actually cried with me. hehe. amazing huh. maybe theres this special connection larh. hee.
but then after i stopped crying, suddenly cried again. aarrrrgghh. hate myself. almost everyone saw me crying ready. n its not a good thing ! hehe. then he came. sat beside me. and took me for a walk. we sat at the senior block staircase. heh. aww. felt real touched that someone's there or me. told me some things. that i wont forget. heh. he managed to cheer me up somehow. thanks .. *hugs*
i got netball after that. ishk. no mood for netball sey. and coach scolded us for not coming. blah blah lalalala. like i care ! hah. training was kinda tough uh. but i just wanna get it over with. thats all. after netball, me n filzah sat around. filzah n harrith go to the netball corner there n played netball. haha. while i sat near the basketball court there. on the staircase wall. haha. whatever its called larh. watched them played soccer. all mix2. got track guys. got him. haha. whoever larh. interesting. sat there alone. then the ball hit me a few times. hahaha.
everything cheered me up i guess. no more crying involved. hehkz. went to 171 coffeeshop after that. after they all bathed n everything. last day of school. haiz. wouldnt see him that often i guess. will really2 miss him.
will be missing u. loving u loads. holding u close. and not letting u go.. time will go by soo slowly when ure away..
