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Saturday, June 11, 2005
hehz. sorry that i havent been updating these few days. its just that, things around me arent going that smoothly uh. but im still strong. we're still strong. but sometimes we do have to cry it all out right. hehz. nvrmn. anyways. im just hoping for the best. *prays* i just wished god will give him a chance out of this. erg. im soo afraid things might turn out badly. haiz.
well. anyways. holidays are okay. ive been going out almost everyday just to see him. just to spend every time i can with him. he means the world to me. this whole week, ive been out. i saw him everyday. hehkz. i knew i should cherished every moment possible. well..
monday. 6june. we went out to catch a movie. was missing him badly the previous weekend. hehe. we had a real nice time together. we kept laughing at each other. haha. watched madagascar. hehe. loved it. was cute. but i loved more having him by my side watching with me. hehkz. then we went for mango pudding. then we went to macs and eat. spent quite a long time at causeway. hee. everything was nicee. hehe.
*muackz*tuesday.7june. i had netball training today. was alright uh. he had class. till 12. when i finished netball at 10, changed and waited for the rest of the track guys in the gym. we all were off to chong pang coffeeshop. he and yusmar went there afterwards. heh. felt bad that he and us had to sit at different tables. and its far somemore. ishk. then the track guys mostly all went home. left hakim faz harrith styleboy filz and me. we sat down in front of a shop and kept thinking on where to go. finally we just took the wind and ended up at safra. just walking around. he went home ready. then we all decided to go his house since nobody was at home. wooh. it was fun. even though we didnt really do anything. then faz and hakim cooked maggie. haha. the whole kicthen was soo kecoh. with me asking them not to do this and that. haha. but super fun. hee. overall, we all had fun. hate to say goodbye to him everytime i had to leave. hehz.
wednesday.8june. accompanied filzah go cut hair. and then had BK. wooh. its been quite some time since i had BK. hehe. and then i went over to khatib. damn. he's sick. hehz. wanted to at least see him. hehe. soo we sat at macs. for quite long. and then. hehz. ups and downs. but whatever it is, i'll still be loving him. i just.. dont wanna let go.
hold me close dont let me go. foever having that special place u were once in, in my heart. i heart u dear.thursday. 9june. had netball. track guys didnt have training today. after i changed, met him iman and harrith. we went to chong pang coffeeshop since filz and me were hungry. hehe. but then.. couldnt really be close to him. 12plus, left with filzah and harrith to cwp. shit. damn. should have at least spend a lil more time with him. i was real quiet after that. its just that.. im scared it'll be how i dont wan it to be. and im already starting to miss him then. met faz fatimah and khai. and we went to bukit gombak stadium to watch them run. had the wings competition. stayed until 6 and watched. all those time, i always wished he was there with me. or at least, i wanna be there with him. haiz. nvrmn. hehz. at night, we both were down. i was like.. walking back memory lane and my tears wont drop. cried so hard that 2 hours later, my eyes were dry and it was painful to cry.
friday.10june. was real down in the morning. didnt want to talk to anyone at all. even ignored my mom sey. ishk. this is bad. heh. then i took a walk around woodlands. then took the train to khatib. hehe. met filzah and durrah. acompanied durrah cut hair at khatib central. coincidentaly, it was at khatib huh. hehe. my hp batt was low. damn. my hp has giving me problems. i cant seem to charge the damn phone. well. anw. met him after that. he was from school. i just wanted to spend some time with him. we just sat there. cherishing every moment. not wanting to let go. and how i wished the clock stopped ticking for that moment. hearts him. its only a few more hours and .... heh. *prays hard* wished the clock would have stop ticking by now. im just wishing for best.
know that no matter wad happens, i'll try not to give up. ure always in my heart. ive saved that place for u forever. but please at least.. dont go yet. im still gonna love u. you're still that special guy in my eyes. cos u.. shine the brightest. *hugs & kisses* dont say goodbye.
♥
Saturday, June 11, 2005
hehz. sorry that i havent been updating these few days. its just that, things around me arent going that smoothly uh. but im still strong. we're still strong. but sometimes we do have to cry it all out right. hehz. nvrmn. anyways. im just hoping for the best. *prays* i just wished god will give him a chance out of this. erg. im soo afraid things might turn out badly. haiz.
well. anyways. holidays are okay. ive been going out almost everyday just to see him. just to spend every time i can with him. he means the world to me. this whole week, ive been out. i saw him everyday. hehkz. i knew i should cherished every moment possible. well..
monday. 6june. we went out to catch a movie. was missing him badly the previous weekend. hehe. we had a real nice time together. we kept laughing at each other. haha. watched madagascar. hehe. loved it. was cute. but i loved more having him by my side watching with me. hehkz. then we went for mango pudding. then we went to macs and eat. spent quite a long time at causeway. hee. everything was nicee. hehe.
*muackz*tuesday.7june. i had netball training today. was alright uh. he had class. till 12. when i finished netball at 10, changed and waited for the rest of the track guys in the gym. we all were off to chong pang coffeeshop. he and yusmar went there afterwards. heh. felt bad that he and us had to sit at different tables. and its far somemore. ishk. then the track guys mostly all went home. left hakim faz harrith styleboy filz and me. we sat down in front of a shop and kept thinking on where to go. finally we just took the wind and ended up at safra. just walking around. he went home ready. then we all decided to go his house since nobody was at home. wooh. it was fun. even though we didnt really do anything. then faz and hakim cooked maggie. haha. the whole kicthen was soo kecoh. with me asking them not to do this and that. haha. but super fun. hee. overall, we all had fun. hate to say goodbye to him everytime i had to leave. hehz.
wednesday.8june. accompanied filzah go cut hair. and then had BK. wooh. its been quite some time since i had BK. hehe. and then i went over to khatib. damn. he's sick. hehz. wanted to at least see him. hehe. soo we sat at macs. for quite long. and then. hehz. ups and downs. but whatever it is, i'll still be loving him. i just.. dont wanna let go.
hold me close dont let me go. foever having that special place u were once in, in my heart. i heart u dear.thursday. 9june. had netball. track guys didnt have training today. after i changed, met him iman and harrith. we went to chong pang coffeeshop since filz and me were hungry. hehe. but then.. couldnt really be close to him. 12plus, left with filzah and harrith to cwp. shit. damn. should have at least spend a lil more time with him. i was real quiet after that. its just that.. im scared it'll be how i dont wan it to be. and im already starting to miss him then. met faz fatimah and khai. and we went to bukit gombak stadium to watch them run. had the wings competition. stayed until 6 and watched. all those time, i always wished he was there with me. or at least, i wanna be there with him. haiz. nvrmn. hehz. at night, we both were down. i was like.. walking back memory lane and my tears wont drop. cried so hard that 2 hours later, my eyes were dry and it was painful to cry.
friday.10june. was real down in the morning. didnt want to talk to anyone at all. even ignored my mom sey. ishk. this is bad. heh. then i took a walk around woodlands. then took the train to khatib. hehe. met filzah and durrah. acompanied durrah cut hair at khatib central. coincidentaly, it was at khatib huh. hehe. my hp batt was low. damn. my hp has giving me problems. i cant seem to charge the damn phone. well. anw. met him after that. he was from school. i just wanted to spend some time with him. we just sat there. cherishing every moment. not wanting to let go. and how i wished the clock stopped ticking for that moment. hearts him. its only a few more hours and .... heh. *prays hard* wished the clock would have stop ticking by now. im just wishing for best.
know that no matter wad happens, i'll try not to give up. ure always in my heart. ive saved that place for u forever. but please at least.. dont go yet. im still gonna love u. you're still that special guy in my eyes. cos u.. shine the brightest. *hugs & kisses* dont say goodbye.
