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Wednesday, September 14, 2005
haiz. hehz. i thought i'd be seeing him todae. well, at least for a little while. but nah. i just caught a sight of him this morning during assembly. 20metres away? heh. yeah. he didnt appear before school in the canteen either.
where are you. school was okay lah. nothing special to elaborate. im just, extra active in class todae. commented on this and that. voicing out my answers like i always do, not. hehz. maybe i was trying to cheer myself up with that smile. blearghs. and oh yeah. mdm hartini suck huh? she, urgh. everyone was soo tensed in class. so silent that you could hear the breathing of the person beside you. soo nervous inside. alah. im not looking forward to her class next yr or the next years. initial impression, a perfectionist who aims TOO high standards for her pupils. she cares too much abt her pupils. even their personal life? she's those counsilling type who'd make people cry. yeah. i could imagine it. hehz.
i got my books back when i went to the general office. phew. but everyone else was gone. sec 4 esp. hehz. no sight of them at all. i searched high and low for him. hehz. literally. but i didnt even see him. what more, hear him. found they all went study at macs. god.
went shooting netballs with vanessa fangli meisiu and filzah. near the canteen too. haha. i can only shoot under the pole. other than that, dont even think about it. hahz. was quite fun uh. and again, trying to cheer myself up. =)) then filzah went off. i wanted soo badly to go to see him for a while at macs. or wait for him. but i had to think of the consequences too. hehz. i'd be DISTURBING them. some wont like it. i'd feel weird. heh. in the end, i followed sukashi linda and shila to chong pang. well, we just walked around. i got myself spongebob stickers again. hehe. its lovely. =) and again,
trying to cheer myself up. uh. this sucks. i was soo near to drive thru macs. my whole heart says '' go and drop a hi for a while. '' but just something seems to stop me from going. hehz. so i left home. not knowing if i made the right decision. i hope he's okay.
im left wondering. i'd run a thousand miles when you want me there. i stared for countless nights. its you. i've found my lucky star. you used to always be there whenever you felt the pain im trying to avoid. silence may be bliss at times. but the silence in your eyes tells it all. when your tears fall. i'll always be there. i want to. and i will. i hope you're doing fine. cos im pouring out the pain i felt from you. somehow, i felt it. take care. give me a call if you happen to read this. =)
♥
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
haiz. hehz. i thought i'd be seeing him todae. well, at least for a little while. but nah. i just caught a sight of him this morning during assembly. 20metres away? heh. yeah. he didnt appear before school in the canteen either.
where are you. school was okay lah. nothing special to elaborate. im just, extra active in class todae. commented on this and that. voicing out my answers like i always do, not. hehz. maybe i was trying to cheer myself up with that smile. blearghs. and oh yeah. mdm hartini suck huh? she, urgh. everyone was soo tensed in class. so silent that you could hear the breathing of the person beside you. soo nervous inside. alah. im not looking forward to her class next yr or the next years. initial impression, a perfectionist who aims TOO high standards for her pupils. she cares too much abt her pupils. even their personal life? she's those counsilling type who'd make people cry. yeah. i could imagine it. hehz.
i got my books back when i went to the general office. phew. but everyone else was gone. sec 4 esp. hehz. no sight of them at all. i searched high and low for him. hehz. literally. but i didnt even see him. what more, hear him. found they all went study at macs. god.
went shooting netballs with vanessa fangli meisiu and filzah. near the canteen too. haha. i can only shoot under the pole. other than that, dont even think about it. hahz. was quite fun uh. and again, trying to cheer myself up. =)) then filzah went off. i wanted soo badly to go to see him for a while at macs. or wait for him. but i had to think of the consequences too. hehz. i'd be DISTURBING them. some wont like it. i'd feel weird. heh. in the end, i followed sukashi linda and shila to chong pang. well, we just walked around. i got myself spongebob stickers again. hehe. its lovely. =) and again,
trying to cheer myself up. uh. this sucks. i was soo near to drive thru macs. my whole heart says '' go and drop a hi for a while. '' but just something seems to stop me from going. hehz. so i left home. not knowing if i made the right decision. i hope he's okay.
im left wondering. i'd run a thousand miles when you want me there. i stared for countless nights. its you. i've found my lucky star. you used to always be there whenever you felt the pain im trying to avoid. silence may be bliss at times. but the silence in your eyes tells it all. when your tears fall. i'll always be there. i want to. and i will. i hope you're doing fine. cos im pouring out the pain i felt from you. somehow, i felt it. take care. give me a call if you happen to read this. =)
