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Sunday, October 30, 2005
i think im in a mess. no idea where im standing now. wad you said. and wad you do adds up to a whole lot of different things. im lost. im broken. and im fading away. i think im losing my way. nights waking up crying to a nightmare. getting a slap from my inner self. scars skin deep. wads next, doing something i think was stupid months ago? heh. hope not.
woke up to a nightmare today. i was in a war, dying. i was the only one left. half dead, i saw them killing my loved ones. my dearest friends. the one i hold closest to my heart. the love of my life. argh, WTF. is this a sign to an end?
i was just searching for the raye spirit today. managed a smile. did all kind of things. but i just couldnt feel it. with raye songs for a whole day. 3 hours of walking around geylang. house sparkling clean with decorations and stuffs. new curtains. i still couldnt feel it. wad else sey. sighs. maybe not this time. its all soo messy. and i havent even plan outings with friends. ARGH, god. help?
i dunno why people look at me differently now. they've got that questioning face when they look at me. some sort of pitying me. or the ''eh, how come she's okay?'' face. and i dunno how to react to that. hah. another misery. i cant wait to get to literature class again. these feelings just cant wait to be poured out into beautiful poems or stories.
i listened to amber pacific and blink 182 for the whole day. its one way to shout it out mentally. nice songs. my favourite. =)
so close your eyes while i fade away.
♥
Sunday, October 30, 2005
i think im in a mess. no idea where im standing now. wad you said. and wad you do adds up to a whole lot of different things. im lost. im broken. and im fading away. i think im losing my way. nights waking up crying to a nightmare. getting a slap from my inner self. scars skin deep. wads next, doing something i think was stupid months ago? heh. hope not.
woke up to a nightmare today. i was in a war, dying. i was the only one left. half dead, i saw them killing my loved ones. my dearest friends. the one i hold closest to my heart. the love of my life. argh, WTF. is this a sign to an end?
i was just searching for the raye spirit today. managed a smile. did all kind of things. but i just couldnt feel it. with raye songs for a whole day. 3 hours of walking around geylang. house sparkling clean with decorations and stuffs. new curtains. i still couldnt feel it. wad else sey. sighs. maybe not this time. its all soo messy. and i havent even plan outings with friends. ARGH, god. help?
i dunno why people look at me differently now. they've got that questioning face when they look at me. some sort of pitying me. or the ''eh, how come she's okay?'' face. and i dunno how to react to that. hah. another misery. i cant wait to get to literature class again. these feelings just cant wait to be poured out into beautiful poems or stories.
i listened to amber pacific and blink 182 for the whole day. its one way to shout it out mentally. nice songs. my favourite. =)
so close your eyes while i fade away.
