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Saturday, October 29, 2005
last day of school. surprising how time flies. uh, kay. im not gonna start on those time flying things. but just, today wasnt as GREAT as i wanted it to be. guess things didnt go the way i wanted it to. just, heartbreaking. them, some just disappoint me on this very last day. where are they sey? wads the use of going home straight away when all i want is to say my final goodbyes? sighs. pure disappointment.
got back results slip. yay. mr ho mentioned about my literature interest. hee. =)) but nothing to be happy about. see my results, hah. not again. not to be wow-ed about. all i see is Cs. a few Bs and tiny As. wads there to smile about? oh yeah, going to express next year. yay? yearbook was unfair. my face's black. right, go and laugh your heads off. heh. netball section, we're the invisibles. we exist in the outer world only wad .. hah. and i was expecting thicker and more from that yearbook. to think i was looking forward to it.
someone looked cute though. =Xmr tan asked me to join the c girls team for training for cross country next year. argh. i want to, but just seeing those dates on the scheldue and the dates on the netball one just gimme a big headache. netball is my first priority here. but, i want to be a good runner too. more opportunities for competitions. aaaaarrghh. dont make me think now. my head cant take it anymore. leave it be for now. lets see who can talk me through this decision. i want time for my social life too, thank you. SOCIAL LIFE? hah. with who sey? not like i have a frigging boyfriend to see everyday kann.
those long long assembly just puts me to sleep sometimes. esp when they say they're gonna let us off, but have sooooo many things yet to say. urgh. so pissed. rushed for netball when the rest are happily sitting together taking pics, playing cards,
fixing other peoples hairr ... second thing, im disappointed. up to the point where i cant continue training. almost fainted. hehz. thanks to you.
got to the canteen. tears were already held back. i saw you, but turned my back at you. im sorry. seeing wad i just saw before that was honestly disappointing. oh, and thanks again hakim.
so many wishes yet to be fulfilled on this very day for that very person.
why. why must i see all those things i shouldnt. i wish im blind. i think i'd be happier like that. marrying someone ugly who loves me with all his heart. i dont mind that if im blind. i'd just imagine him to be my prince charming in my dark2 world. yeah, much more happier. heh. sorry. i just sound really pathetic today. now, i think im really in a mess.
its been 2 days. but still, a single word wasnt spoken. you left without saying goodbye on the
last day of school. oh, i'd call this.
the uncompleted end. hehz.
sorry to hakim, faz, fat, shila. i couldnt join you all today. didnt feel good. and i looked and sound pathetic. i just dont want those smiles of yours to turn to a frown just because of me. i bet you're having fun now. we'll meet some time later yeah.? raye? hee.
must! =)
those bittered smiles of rejection. that was meant to be yours.
♥
Saturday, October 29, 2005
last day of school. surprising how time flies. uh, kay. im not gonna start on those time flying things. but just, today wasnt as GREAT as i wanted it to be. guess things didnt go the way i wanted it to. just, heartbreaking. them, some just disappoint me on this very last day. where are they sey? wads the use of going home straight away when all i want is to say my final goodbyes? sighs. pure disappointment.
got back results slip. yay. mr ho mentioned about my literature interest. hee. =)) but nothing to be happy about. see my results, hah. not again. not to be wow-ed about. all i see is Cs. a few Bs and tiny As. wads there to smile about? oh yeah, going to express next year. yay? yearbook was unfair. my face's black. right, go and laugh your heads off. heh. netball section, we're the invisibles. we exist in the outer world only wad .. hah. and i was expecting thicker and more from that yearbook. to think i was looking forward to it.
someone looked cute though. =Xmr tan asked me to join the c girls team for training for cross country next year. argh. i want to, but just seeing those dates on the scheldue and the dates on the netball one just gimme a big headache. netball is my first priority here. but, i want to be a good runner too. more opportunities for competitions. aaaaarrghh. dont make me think now. my head cant take it anymore. leave it be for now. lets see who can talk me through this decision. i want time for my social life too, thank you. SOCIAL LIFE? hah. with who sey? not like i have a frigging boyfriend to see everyday kann.
those long long assembly just puts me to sleep sometimes. esp when they say they're gonna let us off, but have sooooo many things yet to say. urgh. so pissed. rushed for netball when the rest are happily sitting together taking pics, playing cards,
fixing other peoples hairr ... second thing, im disappointed. up to the point where i cant continue training. almost fainted. hehz. thanks to you.
got to the canteen. tears were already held back. i saw you, but turned my back at you. im sorry. seeing wad i just saw before that was honestly disappointing. oh, and thanks again hakim.
so many wishes yet to be fulfilled on this very day for that very person.
why. why must i see all those things i shouldnt. i wish im blind. i think i'd be happier like that. marrying someone ugly who loves me with all his heart. i dont mind that if im blind. i'd just imagine him to be my prince charming in my dark2 world. yeah, much more happier. heh. sorry. i just sound really pathetic today. now, i think im really in a mess.
its been 2 days. but still, a single word wasnt spoken. you left without saying goodbye on the
last day of school. oh, i'd call this.
the uncompleted end. hehz.
sorry to hakim, faz, fat, shila. i couldnt join you all today. didnt feel good. and i looked and sound pathetic. i just dont want those smiles of yours to turn to a frown just because of me. i bet you're having fun now. we'll meet some time later yeah.? raye? hee.
must! =)
those bittered smiles of rejection. that was meant to be yours.
