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Saturday, October 22, 2005
i passed all my subjects. for the first frigging time. oh well, except for project work uh. alah, minor case. im not sure if i improved from last semester one. but i know i passed miserably in science, history and geography. damn lah. and i've improved lots on my english especially. heh. miracle. urm, others. you dont need to know. =)
school today was filled with free periods, waiting for the teacher to come. borrowed haikal's n-gage and played sims. nyahaha. its so frigging addictive. i dunno if i should sell the current phone and get an n-gage. hehs. since my life is full of nothingness now.
after school, sat with fat sukashi shila filzah. crap3. then i had to go for netball. netball training shirt is going to be sent for orders soon. yay. personalized ones. wee. =) ran outside 2 rounds and did basic ball work. after that an activity and i couldnt take it anymore. was dying of thrist. left early. made my way back home half dead. almost asleep waiting for the bus. rushed home and change. met hakim faz and fatimah at woodlands. then we're off to jurong point.
i went through alot just to get to the entrance of jurong point. these tears just cant stop falling. and these memories stand still. hehs. it was painful.
sufferings of my nothingness. settled down at pizza hut and waited. faz shouldnt have sang that song. its really painful thinking about it. hehz. tears again. alaah, i shouldnt have went to jurong point. there's just too much memories lying around there.
broke fast. got a little bit better after that. walked around and stop by the arcade. played. but im sorry, my smile was fake. hehz. im soo soo sorry. i just couldnt stop thinking about it. and so made my way back home.
this is unfair. i felt unfair. i dont know wads happening in my house. everyone's got that negative thinking about me. esp my mom. my sister adding fuel to the flame and not making this better. my brother's always busy with his own stuffs. heh. i just saw it myself. my life's in a mess. there's nothing i look forward to when i wake up in the morning. nothing. and i dunno why it hurts so much whenever these memories come back. hehs. this is bad lah. so bad that i feel like running away. dying. or disappearing from this world. this seriously sucks. yaahh. i miss you. i miss you, okay. i miss you terribly each day.
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Saturday, October 22, 2005
i passed all my subjects. for the first frigging time. oh well, except for project work uh. alah, minor case. im not sure if i improved from last semester one. but i know i passed miserably in science, history and geography. damn lah. and i've improved lots on my english especially. heh. miracle. urm, others. you dont need to know. =)
school today was filled with free periods, waiting for the teacher to come. borrowed haikal's n-gage and played sims. nyahaha. its so frigging addictive. i dunno if i should sell the current phone and get an n-gage. hehs. since my life is full of nothingness now.
after school, sat with fat sukashi shila filzah. crap3. then i had to go for netball. netball training shirt is going to be sent for orders soon. yay. personalized ones. wee. =) ran outside 2 rounds and did basic ball work. after that an activity and i couldnt take it anymore. was dying of thrist. left early. made my way back home half dead. almost asleep waiting for the bus. rushed home and change. met hakim faz and fatimah at woodlands. then we're off to jurong point.
i went through alot just to get to the entrance of jurong point. these tears just cant stop falling. and these memories stand still. hehs. it was painful.
sufferings of my nothingness. settled down at pizza hut and waited. faz shouldnt have sang that song. its really painful thinking about it. hehz. tears again. alaah, i shouldnt have went to jurong point. there's just too much memories lying around there.
broke fast. got a little bit better after that. walked around and stop by the arcade. played. but im sorry, my smile was fake. hehz. im soo soo sorry. i just couldnt stop thinking about it. and so made my way back home.
this is unfair. i felt unfair. i dont know wads happening in my house. everyone's got that negative thinking about me. esp my mom. my sister adding fuel to the flame and not making this better. my brother's always busy with his own stuffs. heh. i just saw it myself. my life's in a mess. there's nothing i look forward to when i wake up in the morning. nothing. and i dunno why it hurts so much whenever these memories come back. hehs. this is bad lah. so bad that i feel like running away. dying. or disappearing from this world. this seriously sucks. yaahh. i miss you. i miss you, okay. i miss you terribly each day.
